Tuesday, June 14, 2011
So yeah, it's june holidays now. infact it's already mid june. sorry for all the shits that happened in my life now. FML. i just feel like an asshole bitch now. i dont know why i feels like this, very weird i know. this feeling that im going thru now is indescribably said. somehow i just feel like deleting all my blog post and start a new one since im starting a new life with new humans with new lifestyle. if it's so complicated, ignore all the precious post of my lifetime story. cause for me now, it sucks big big time. such an ass, living with asshole humans.
so yeah, since then i changed the way i am. i kept quiet most of the time with my mates. i just got nothing to share with them. why share if they ignore? delvina and me had the same idea and solution to this idiotic life story. all we can do now, is get our life rocking and moving with the ones that we can really trust. there's nothing much that we can do. but fcvk life, we're still gonna rock the way we live our life.
first thing of all, after 8 months waiting for the love one, i have finally tried to move on bit by bit. like finally, im stepping forward. thank god for the strength to face life obstacles. and the stupid part is that, why after the worthless 8 months of waiting then i realise that it's wasting my time. what's the point of waiting if he love but dont want to commit a relationship. eventhough we're just schoolmates now, i still got to face my major examination which is my N levels and i'll try my very very best to qualify into the 5NA stream. god willing.
with the mates that i always hang around with, im sorry if im going to MIA very very soon when school reopens. i can't stick my life hanging around wasting time doing stuff like we normally do. i got major problems in my life, outside school life. with me handling the durbar problems too eventually not dikirbarat problem but personally problems. it's also best for me to leave you guys to yourself cause i know im not needed. no, im not being emotional bitch but im stating the fact.
brother gee, wassup with you nowadays? 4 days straight, you postponed or cancelled our plans. that's very shitty. i dont knw why you're acting weird when you get to knw that i contact with our own mates. gee, we're one family so we got the rights to share as sharing is caring. you expect me to share with you all the time? gee, you're always up to yourself. calling and text not entertained only for some reasons. why is this shit happen gee? i just got to be lil' bit more patience towards this situation. 4 times being paitao and also it's not fair for me to go over to your heartland and you cancelled the plan last minute. wasting of money, time, energy, sweat, ezlink and also the prepaid credits that im using now. whatever your reason is, it's shitty shitty for me to go thru this situation again and again. FML. end up, i went to bukit batok after meeting a friend of mine. and got no where else to go, i headed to town walked thru downtown and rested at esplanade with no money, no cigg. i was just being in a survivor mode. come on, im home now i will be out soon since you will be busy with your stuff. it's okay dude, im cool here as always. standing here with a smile but sorrow at heart. brother, i love you. thanks for caring for me. i appreciate your kindness. eventho we're heading our own life, atleast i know i care and you care too.
So yeah, it's june holidays now. infact it's already mid june. sorry for all the shits that happened in my life now. FML. i just feel like an asshole bitch now. i dont know why i feels like this, very weird i know. this feeling that im going thru now is indescribably said. somehow i just feel like deleting all my blog post and start a new one since im starting a new life with new humans with new lifestyle. if it's so complicated, ignore all the precious post of my lifetime story. cause for me now, it sucks big big time. such an ass, living with asshole humans.