Somehow today isn't my happy day at all. Earlier part maybe, but overall no. I just fvcking feel disappointed in myself. The rest have something else to settle on the 26th, the day that all agreed to sheesha for my birthday celebration. but i got no say. i only can just accept the fact that we're not going. love tried to rearrange the date, but to me there is no use of it anymore. the excitement of going out had faded away. i cant blame anyone or the event. cause nothing will change.